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My Life Thus Far
2006-06-26 02:53:45 (UTC)

I'm A Porn Star!

I'm back. Sorry to keep you all in suspence like that. No,
I haven't killed myself, although at times it seems like a
good idea. Nothing much has happened in the couple of days
I've been AWOL.

Friday was my 24th birthday (Happy belated Birthday to
me). Nothing much happened as far as celebration goes, but
Gen and I did chill at the mall for a little bit. I guess
it would have really sucked if I'd spent the day
completely alone. My father and I had our "date" at 11pm.
We talked about everything under the sun, from the moment
he called until 4am. It's nice connecting with at least
one of my parents.

Saturday (yesterday)I did absolutely nothing. I spent the
entire day either in bed or sitting on the couch. I didn't
shower, change out of my pajamas or brush my hair. It was
a hopelessly useless day. I both look forward to and dread
Saturdays because I know I get to be a vegetable, but then
again, I'm tired of being a vegetable. I'm tired of
feeling the need to be a vegetable. I want to enjoy my
weekend like normal humans do. But, no. I'm just a
vegetable.

Today (Sunday) I managed to drag my sorry ass out of bed
and I did all the housework I'm suppose to do on Saturday,
but usually can't bring myself to get out of bed for. At
least my house is clean, even if I'm a mess.

I'm a porn star! I just feel I need to share that with as
many people as I can. As a symbol of my newfound
liberation as a woman, I made a website for Snookums (no,
I'm not telling you where it's at). I did some kinky shit,
that's for sure. I was surprised at myself. But, after I'd
posted the pictures, looked back at them several times and
had a chance to digest what I'd done, I came to accept
that I'm not fat anymore, I actually looked pretty damn
good and I need to stop being so hard on myself. Yes, I
still want to lose a little more weight, but if I didn't,
it wouldn't be the end of the universe. I think I'm going
to update it tonight. Snookums wants pictures of me
squirting breast milk. Strange, but it's his fantasy. Ciao.




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