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My Life Thus Far
2006-06-11 05:40:31 (UTC)

Shit

That's the best descriptor for my day. I don't understand
why I've lost my ability to enjoy life. Where did it go? I
feel like shit, I look like shit (dark circles under my
eyes, pale, overall just tired looking), I don't want to
do shit, think about shit, say shit. Shit, shit, shit.
It's my word of the day.

Right now Snookums is spending the day with my father in
San Diego. They've been together for a full 12 hours and
from the few phone calls I've gotten, it sounds like
they're hitting it off swimmingly. I can't help but be a
little jealous. I'm here alone (well, I've got the
children) while they bond and get to know each other. He's
my father! Why couldn't I be the one bonding? It was just
a lucky coincidence that Snookie's ship just happened to
be coming into port in San Diego when I regained contact
with my father, so why shouldn't they get to know each
other if they're only a matter of a few miles apart? I
shouldn't be so jealous.

I didn't get any of my housework done today. Saturdays I
usually clean house, do laundry and make sure everything
is ready for the next week. Well, I just didn't feel like
doing it today (much like last weekend) and now I'm in
danger of staying up until all hours of the night to get
it done. Part of me doesn't want to do that, but the other
side of me wants to get it done, so tomorrow I can just do
the laundry and not have to clean and handle the girls
(who come behind me and re-mess as I clean). I guess
that's what I'll be doing. Cleaning. At 10:40pm. I have
only myself to blame. Ciao.




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