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My Life Thus Far
2006-06-09 04:01:32 (UTC)

Could I Have A Brain Tumor?

My head is about to explode. My eyes can't handle the
light. My right temple feels like a golf ball hit me there
(it's sore like I've been hit, there's even a little lump)
and I'm so very tired. I can't believe I have to go to
work tomorrow. I'm not sure what kind of day I'll have,
but I'm already starting to think it isn't going to go so
well. I hope I'm wrong.

This morning I tried to make an appointment to get some
drugs, but of course the Navy only has one psychologist
and one psychiatrist at Naval Hospital(the rest have been
sent to Iraq). So, I'm on a waiting list. That kind of set
the tone for the rest of my day. I couldn't stop crying. I
think I spent more time sitting in my car crying than I
did doing anything else.

Kiki got sent home early again. This time for diarrhea.
So, I spent the better part of the afternoon in the
emergency room, waiting for them to give me walking papers
saying that she wasn't contagious and could come to
daycare tomorrow. This also brought on more tears.
Snookums called me while I was in the ER waiting room and
I at least got to vent a little. I'm not religious or
anything, but I thank God for letting Snookums call me
when he did, because at that moment I was feeling so
overwhelmed, so hopeless, so alone and to hear my phone
ring and to pick it up and it be Snookums' soothing voice.
It just put my mind at ease. I love that man so much.

I'm not feeling so good right now. My head hurts in ways I
didn't know it could hurt in. Does depression make your
head hurt, or could I have a brain tumor? I'm going to
bed. Ciao.




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