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My Life Thus Far
2006-04-27 02:52:16 (UTC)

Like Clucking Chickens

Why is it when you get a group of woman together, all we
want to do is chat like clucking chickens? Gymtime is
usually a solitary time for me. Aside from the occasional
lewd comment from a sailor, I'm pretty much in my own
world the majority of the time, but today (when I actually
had somewhere to go, something to do) I ended up getting
into a lengthy group therapy session in the sauna. I don't
know. I guess it was nice, connecting and communicating
with other human beings. I don't do that very often, so
it's something I'm not familiar with, or totally
comfortable with. But, it isn't really a big deal. I
wanted to get the car washed before work (that's what I
needed to do) but, it can just stay filthy.

I've done well today. According to my 7-day cycle diet
(which I've decided to stick with, because it's working
and it's NORMAL. Well, I'm trying to stick with. Sometimes
the calorie requirements are too high, in my crazy, warped
mind) I'm suppose to have 1514 calories today. My logical
mind knows that this is only 100 calories over my BMR,
therefore, well below what my body would burn in a day.
But the Disordered Eating side of my brain is saying "NO
FUCKING WAY, you're eating 1514 calories! You'll never
lose weight stuffing your face like that!". So far I've
had 1185 and I'm feeling like that's enough. I haven't
been hungry at all. I know how to space out as little as
500 calories in such a way as to avoid hunger pangs, so of
course over 1000 calories wouldn't leave me hungry. But,
I'm rambling, so I'll stop.

I need to get my butt off this computer and get my house
cleaned up. I have been seriously slacking off when it
comes to housekeeping, so I'm going to make myself a TO DO
list and start tackling it. After all, my Mother-In-Law is
coming on Sunday. Can't have a dirty house :) Ciao.




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