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My Life Thus Far
2006-04-20 02:05:28 (UTC)

Superbly Blissful

Today was about 1000% better than yesterday, or the day
before, or the day before that. I'm is such a GOOD mood
and I'm just feeling superbly blissful. Last night, I
ordered yet another pizza, but 2 slices in I just couldn't
eat anymore. From that moment on I haven't had the urge to
binge. I'm PRAYING that this feeling sticks with me and
I'm able to get back on track. I got out of work early
today (around 2:30pm) because it was staff dental day. So
I paid physical restitution to my body at the gym. It felt
SOOOOO good. I can't even desribe it. I burned my usual
500 calories in 30 minutes, which is really good. I even
got asked advice on my ab workout. Another lady wanted ME
to show her how to do it. That's a big compliment. I must
be doing something right, then. She looked skinny to me.
So, maybe I'm not as fat as my mind perceives if she's
asking me for advice. Whatever. I'm still fat.

I've been feeling really wierd lately. I've been weepy,
irritable, HUNGRY, 5 pounds heavier, bloated and my
breasts feel like they are about a thousand pounds each.
Sore and slightly warm. Either PMS is getting REALLY bad
for me or Snookie and I have had one too many broken
condoms. At this point I'm praying for bad PMS, because I
feel like I just got my body back from pregnancy with
Kiki. I'm STILL leaking milk, for God's sake. I can't
nurse another one!! But, anyway. I'm sure it's nothing. I
bought a pregnancy test just for kicks. I'm about 98%
positive it will be negative, but there's always that 2%
of doubt. I'm waiting until tomorrow morning to do it. I
figure, my period will either be on by then (it's 5 days
late) or I'll have a nice, strong, concentrated urine
specimen to test. I'm an old pro at this. I haven't done
the math as to just how far along I COULD be (could being
the operative word), but with both Annie and Kiki I took
multiple tests and they didn't come up positive until I
was 6 weeks pregnant with Annie and 8 weeks with Kiki, so
hopefully my period will just start tonight and not leave
me in suspense.

I need to be going. Kiki is ready for bed and Annie may
not be, but she always passes out anyway. So, Ciao :)




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