Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2006-04-13 02:44:17 (UTC)

An Overwhelmingly Overpowering Urge

My goal is to be done with all my evening duties and in
bed by 8:30pm. Lets see if I can do it...

Thankfully, today is over. It wasn't an exceptionally BAD
day. I just wouldn't call it a GOOD day. Mostly my day is
encompassed by how well work goes and since work got off
to a rocky start, my whole day got off to a rocky start.

It started with sleep deprivation. The first few nights
after Snookie leaves, it's hard for me to sleep. Don't
know why, that's just the way it is. So, last night I woke
up just about every hour, pretty much waiting for the
clock to hit 5am, so I could get up. Of course, when it
did reach 5am, I was ready to sleep. Ain't that a bitch?

At huddle this morning (huddle is the pet name someone
gave to the morning meeting), I found out that I was
taking some of Chrystal's patients because she called in
sick. I totally wasn't mentally prepared for that and I
don't have the foggiest idea how to do half of the
procedures with the doctors. It isn't that I don't know
how to do them. We're taught all the technical information
we'll ever need to know in school, we just can't be taught
how every single dentist will want it done, so I was
fumbling around. Not knowing what to do next. Not knowing
what to say next. It was a disaster. Hence, my rocky start
to the day.

Sherri came in to help relieve the crunch (no one was able
to do the things I usually do, so EVERYTHING was getting
backed up) and I was able to switch with her. It isn't
that I don't want to become proficient in the way the
practice is run. I just don't want to be thrown into it.
You know, the sink or swim method? It isn't happening.
What happened to the training I was suppose to be getting?

Well, Sherilan (Ms. Office Manager) FINALLY paired me up
with a mentor, so I'll be shadowing Ruthie from now on.
THANK YOU. Some direction! The good thing is, my work week
just got a little shorter. Now I'll be working Wednesday,
Thursday and Friday only :) I'm pleased with that :)
Although, in a perfect world, I'd prefer to work Monday,
Tuesday and Wednesday, but a girl just can't be too picky.
Ruthie is an amazing assistant. She's been doing this
longer than I've been alive. 25 years. She's a wellspring
of knowledge and I feel so lucky to have her as my mentor.

I'm fighting an OVERWHELMINGLY OVERPOWERING urge to order
a hawaiian pizza and just BINGE. I don't know why I feel
the need to do this. I'm trying to stifle the irrational
urge, but it's hard. Part of me is trying so hard to be
good, and the other part of me is just wanting to give in.
I'm fighting it, for now...

It's 7:42pm. I still have to make bottles and take a
shower before I can go to bed. So, if I'm going to make it
by 8:30pm, I'd better get going. Ciao until tomorrow.




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