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My Life Thus Far
I'm A Foodaphobe
Today was such a BEAUTIFUL day! The first day of Spring
couldn't have been more perfect. The sun was shining, not
a cloud in the sky. It was WARM. Just perfect. I'm pleased
that my depression as cleared up enough for me to
appreciate the sunshine again. Let's hope with the sunny
weather coming I can enjoy it this year, instead of hiding
inside like I did last year.
I think the cheerful weather does something to my driving
ability, because I caught myself going 80 a couple of
times on the highway today. Which I SHOULD NOT be doing.
For one it isn't safe and two, I don't need a ticket. Last
year I got pulled over, doing 83 in a 60. I got a $183
dollar ticket! The judge deferred it (which means I don't
have to pay it) on the condition that I go a full year
without getting another ticket (April 22 of this year will
be a full year from the court date). If I do get another
ticket I have to pay the $183 ticket, the new ticket AND I
paid a $200 dollar fee to keep it off my record, so I
don't want to get another ticket. Alot of money is on the
line.
My day wasn't as hair-pullingly busy as I thought it would
be. I went to the gym this morning and kicked butt.
Seriously, I was sweating so hard and feeling so good. I'm
proud of myself. I can feel myself getting firmer, more
toned and I'm starting to see the results. Go ME!
I went into work for the Dentrix (computer software)
training and it was a scary experience for me. Not the
training, but the food. Sherilan had set up a pretty
impressive luncheon. Baby green's with bell pepper
vinaigrette, cole slaw, fried chicken, potato chips, soda,
grapes, apple pie. I was absolutely PETRIFIED to eat in
front of all the other girls. It wasn't that I was afraid
of the act of eating, it was that I hadn't planned on
eating anything at all. I didn't want to eat foods I
didn't know the calorie content of. So, I took a small
bowl of the baby greens, a handful of grapes and a cup of
diet soda. Total= 91 calories. I looked it up on
calorieking.com when I got home. I'm under 700 calories
for the day. The thing that frightened me a little was how
out of control I felt. I didn't want to stand out by being
the only person NOT eating, but I didn't want the
calories. I didn't want the extra food. I just wanted to
stay in control and I felt like I'd lost it. I was glad to
get out of there and away from that food. I'm a
foodaphobe, I guess.
I was suppose to get my hair braided today, but Felicia
(the lady that does my hair) was running behind and
wouldn't have had enough time to get it done before I
needed to pick up the girls from daycare. So, I'll make an
appointment sometime next week and hope she can do it
then. She's really in high demand, because she's the only
one in there that does "ethnic" hair. It was just a whim
anyway. I might decide I don't want it done, anyway.
I bought new ballet gear today. I got a much more
comfortable leotard than the one I got at Irene's (my
school supplies a leotard and tights for people that don't
want to buy the professional quality stuff) and I got a
tutu to cover my bubble butt. I decided I wanted leather
ballet slippers instead of the elastosplits, because I
need the support for my high arches. This Thursday
Snookums will be home, so there's no reason for me to miss
class.
Well, I'm going to see if I can retire early tonight.
Maybe I'll paint my toenails or something. Ciao until
tomorrow :)
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