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My Life Thus Far
2006-02-22 01:16:34 (UTC)

Good News - Bad News

The Good News: I don't have gallstones and I don't have to
have surgery.

The Bad News: I have a kidney stone lodged high up in my
urethral duct and they aren't going to do a damn thing
about it. Even though I drink 10-15 glasses of water a
day, I'm being told to drink more fluids and it will pass
on it's own. Yeah, good plan medical professionals! After
3 weeks of never-ending pain it sure looks like it's
passing on it's own. So, from now on, I'm going to learn
to live with the pain, even if it makes me a bitter,
unpleasant person to be around. My doctor told me to come
see her in a week if the pain hasn't subsided and she'll
order more tests, but I'm not going to go see her. I'm
tired of the hospital. I'm tired of tests and I'm tired of
the run around. Since "nothing" is their main plan of
action, then "nothing" will be my follow-up on that
action. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Ever since this whole health crisis started, it's been
eating away at my sense of vitality and well-being. I
don't feel healthy. I feel weak and injured. I want to get
back to the way I was feeling just a month ago. Full of
energy and life. Now I'm just a pitiful shadow of my
former robust self. So, I'm going to ignore the pain and
do my best to restore my sense of well-being, even if it's
only a facade.

I'm still going to the gym as often as possible, but with
all of these doctor's appointments, I haven't been getting
in my 5 workouts a week. This week, I'll only be getting
in 3 because of the holiday and today's appointment. So,
it'll be nice to get back on track with that. Even though
I wasn't the one that got myself off track. Dispite the
missed workouts, I'm still down to 156 pounds, a low I
haven't seen in YEARS, since I was 16 years old and 8
months pregnant with Annie. I've still got a ways to go,
but at least I'm not stuck at 160.

We got our taxes prepared today, since after my
appointment Snookums and I had some spare time. The
military does our taxes for us for free at Navy Legal, so
we take advantage of that service every year. Why not? H&R
Block is a rip-off in comparison to FREE. Our return this
year is $6,905 even. Not bad. Another big chunk of
spending money! Actually, most of it will just be tucked
away in our savings account, since there isn't anything we
really want to spend it on. Our retirement is in good
shape, the girls' college funds are growing and my in-laws
are rich. Our future is set! I feel really blessed to be
in such a good finacial situation.

I've got a spliting headache. I don't know why, but I'm
going to go lie down. I'm still planning on taking care of
myself as best as I can, even if all I've got is a
stubborn kidney stone. Ciao.




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