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My Life Thus Far
2006-02-19 23:32:34 (UTC)

I Don't Know, What Do You Think?

I'm starting to think that every once in awhile someone
has to send me feedback to just fuck with me. Maybe they
don't have anything else to do and they say to
themselves "I think I'll go fuck with Jennifer today". Or
maybe they are having a shitty day and fucking with me is
their way of picking themselves up. I don't know, but I've
decided that there really is no way for me to get away
from it, I've just got to stand my ground, defend myself
and stuff their shit right back down their throats. What
do you think?

What caused this little rant, you ask? Well, I got some
feedback from an anonymous party that basically insinuated
that because I don't gush on and on about how much I love
my daughters, like I do my husband, then I'm therefore, a
bad mother. Not her exact words, but that's what she
meant. What universe is she living in? Doesn't she realize
that the internet ISN'T a safe place for children?
Pedophiles and predators are all over the place and I
don't want to even remotely put my babies in jeopardy
because some woman and her self-righteous beliefs thinks I
don't talk about my children enough. Why does she care?
What, does she want to compare the color of her baby's
poop to Kiki's? I'm not that kind of mother. I love my
children more than myself, but I'm not a playdate, PTA,
Mother's Of Preschoolers kind of mom. I hate those kinds
of moms. I avoid them at all costs. Call me selfish, call
me a bitch, it's just not me and it never will be! I feel
better now, thank you.

Today has gone by rather quickly. It's hard to believe
it's already 3:30pm. I'd better start thinking about
dinner. Mostly, I spent the day resting on the coach. I
got up around 9am and Snookums had already gotten the
girls' cleaned up and fed. I gravitated to the coach at
that point and only got up to feed the girls' lunch and to
check my e-mial. I'm not in too much pain right now. I
haven't eaten much today, just a non-fat smoothie, half a
cup of minestrone soup and a whole wheat tortilla. I'm
scared to eat and risk an "attack". I'm trying to avoid
drugs as much as I can. I didn't take them before bed last
night and subsequently didn't sleep well, so I don't know
what to do. Do I take the pills, risk addiction, get out
of pain? Or suffer? My doctor gave them to me, I should
take them, right? I don't know, what do you think? Ciao
for now.




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