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My Life Thus Far
2006-02-07 05:46:11 (UTC)

I'm Procrastinating

After my momentary lapse of composure the day before
yesterday, I logged on to update my diary last night and
was shocked to see how many people are actually reading
what I write. I didn't have the strength to justify myself
and my behavior, so I just didn't write. I wasn't up to
the challenge. So, today I took an hour and responded to
everyone's feedback and now that I've spoken my peace, I
can move on with my life. I realize I may not be the
poster child for perfect mental health, but I'm not
biggest nut-job I know, and I'm okay with that.

I'm procrastinating right now. I went to Costco today and
bought my usual: Diapers, baby wipes, granola bars,
talking rain (bottled water), etc. The stuff I use a lot
of. Duh, that's why I buy it at Costco. Now I've got big
empty boxes scattered around the house and my usual
evening chores still left to do. I just want to crawl in
bed and sleep. I'm tired.

My extern was good today. I'm branching out, trying new
things and slowly finding my way around the practice. Each
day concretely reminds me that I DON'T want to work there.
I hope they don't ask me to work there, because I don't
want to tell them "no". I'd rather just bow out gracefully
when my extern is over. Snookums wants me to go back to
just being his wife and I'd be okay with that as long as I
can still go to the gym. The three weeks after Kiki went
into daycare and I was able to go to the gym, but still
have the rest of the day to do what I pleased was great.

I got Snookums' Valentine's Day present today! It was such
a good idea, I couldn't help but pat myself on the back.
Friday evening I checked the mail and there was a Kay
Jewelers catalogue in the mail box. I flipped through it
(because I love jewelry) and I came across this men's
stainless steel, yellow gold and diamond bracelet for
$199.00. The channel set diamonds look exactly like the
diamond setting on Snookie's wedding band. So, today as
soon as I got off from work, I went to the mall and bought
it. Then I took it to be engraved. Tomorrow I'll pick it
up and it will say on the back "Always and Forever My
Snookums 2-14-06" I know he'll love it. Because, he'll
never be able to guess what it is. So, for under $250.00 I
got him a very thoughtful gift he'll remember (and have)
forever.

My workout was much-needed and therapeutic. Usually my
butt is dragging when I trugde in to the gym, but I get
into it once I start. Today, I was very in to it from the
get-go and felt so goooood when I finished. It was exactly
what I needed.

I really need to get my butt back in gear and finish
getting everything back in order. I still need to make
lunches, bottles, clean up, shower and I'm trying to watch
the Bachelor in Paris (why, I don't know). Ciao.




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