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My Life Thus Far
2006-02-02 03:52:52 (UTC)

Fuck It

I'm so tired, I can hardly think straight. But, since I
don't think straight very often anyway, this is nothing
new. I'm being reminded of how much I hate being a single
parent, now that Snookie is gone.

My extern was as mind-numbingly boring as it was the day
before and the day before that. It was slightly better
today, only because it was busier and I got to at least
watch something going on. Even if I didn't get to do
anything :( I HATE not being able to DO something. I'm
just as good as any of the other girls there. I'm actually
formally educated in dentistry and not just hired off the
street 8 months ago, but I can't exactly come out and say
that, now can I?

I'm feeling very frustrated with my weight loss. Mostly,
because it hasn't been much of a loss. I haven't dropped a
single pound in a week. I've actually gained 3. How
considering I'm burning more calories at the gym than I
eat in a day, I don't know. I'm sick of thinking about it
all the time and wondering what I could do differently, so
I'm letting it go for awhile. I'm still going to work out
everyday, but only for an hour instead of 2 and I'm going
to increase my food intake to at least 1500-2000 calories
a day. I'm hoping that after taking a break from the
weight loss for a couple weeks, I'll overcome this plateau
and start dropping again. Even if it's only a pound a
week. I'll still be happy with that. Right now I'm going
to concentrate on getting firmed up and toned. The Pilates
and other tightening exercises are starting to work and I
love the results, so I'll work on that and forget about
the number on the scale for awhile. It's only discouraging
me and I don't want to risk getting to the point of "fuck
it" and start packing on weight again. I intend to live
this lifestyle for the rest of my days, so I'd better take
steps to make sure I don't get tired of it after only 6
months.

My plan for the evening is to straighten up the house, get
ready for tomorrow, take a hot shower and go to bed. I
slept good last night, but I'm still VERY tired and have
been most of the day. I didn't even want to work out
today, which isn't like me. Well, Ciao until tomorrow.




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