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My Life Thus Far
2006-01-24 07:09:13 (UTC)

Goodbye Hurts

No matter how many times I have to do it, saying "Goodbye"
isn't getting any easier. Tonight I dropped Snookums off
at Delta Pier and watched as he disappeared up the gangway
of the Stennis, number 74. If you've never been in close
proximity to an aircraft carrier, it really is quite
spectacular in it's size and presence. It gives you a
false sense of security when you're entrusting the love of
your life into it's care. The truth of the matter is, my
husband is one of many in a large, floating target. A
lifesized piece of the Battleship boardgame. Part of me is
very proud to be a military wife, supporting my husband in
his decision to serve his country (written while
suppressing the urge to vomit). But, most of me HATES that
he has to leave all the time and when he is home, he's
always overworked or stressed out. I wish we had a normal
homelife. But, I knew what I was getting myself into when
I agreed to marry a Navy man. I feel like I've written
this same entry before. Nothing changes from cruise to
cruise, deployment to sea trail. Nothing. Goodbye hurts no
matter the reason.

Tonight a bunch of people from Snookie's division met up
at Olive Garden to say goodbye to Shauntey and to just
hang out for the first time. Shauntey is transfering to
San Diego on Wednesday, so tonight was an opportunity to
just wish her well and say so long. It was fun getting to
meet some of the people Snookie works with and I got to
see Claudia's baby for the first time. She and I talked
for a bit about breastfeeding. She's having a hard time
with it and I understand her struggle. Although
breastfeeding is the best thing you can do for your baby,
it isn't as easy as the La Leche League would like to make
it out to be.

I'm going to bed now. I'm tired and I'm going to have to
start my life as a single parent tomorrow morning. So,
ciao until later.




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