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My Life Thus Far
2005-12-16 06:18:24 (UTC)

The Intricacies Of My Daily Meanderings

I apologize for not putting forth more effort when it
comes to writing witty and engaging entries. I've been so
busy this week (with Snookums gone) that I haven't had the
time to park myself in front of the computer and ruminate
on the intricacies of my daily meanderings. I'm simply too
tired to use long since forgotten words, when my mind is
working in one syllable utterances.

I'll give you the abridged version of my day, so I can go
take a shower and wrap presents for my family (or I'll
wake up to an unscheduled playdate. Nothing is sacred
unless it's swaddled in brightly colored wrapping paper
and topped with a bow).

So, today I shopped...THE END.

Well, there is more to it than that, but basically that's
all I did. I went to Wal-mart to buy the necessary
batteries and stocking stuffers I didn't get yesterday and
I went to Sydney Village (an import store in downtown Port
Orchard) to find the perfect gift for Gen. I'm having such
a hard time finding that perfect something for her. I
ended up settling on a gift that I thought was nice, but
wasn't necessarily perfect. I've been trying for days to
find that PERFECT present and it continues to illude me,
so I gave up trying. I hope she likes what I ended up
getting her. You know that feeling when you find the
perfect gift for someone? It just hits you like a
meteorite or bolt of lightning, out of nowhere and you
know it's perfect, well I never felt that. I just didn't
get it, no matter what I looked at. I'm usually so good at
getting people thoughtful gifts and I blew it with Gen.
Snookums, Kiki, Annie, Snookums parents. I got it right, I
know it, but Gen I couldn't do. Oh, well. When I come
across that perfect gift in February, I'll give it to her
then. She'll understand.

Tonight, Annie and I baked German Chocolate cupcakes for
her multicultral feast tomorrow at school. I'm not looking
forward to mingling with the other parents. I'm a little
bit younger than all of them and I don't fit in. Most of
the other children's parents are in their late 20's at the
youngest, but mostly in their 30's and 40's. They seem old
to me (no offense, my husband is in his late 20's and he
seems old to me). I can't identify with them. I'd shoot
myself if I dressed like them and I don't eat, sleep,
drink, breath, Kitsap Lake Elementary school, so they
don't want much to do with me, either. It works out for
the best, I guess.

I've noticed lately, that I'm starting to withdraw from
people again and I'm not sure why. I'm dropping Annie off
at school and picking her up, so I don't have to talk to
her care providers at daycare, I'm avoiding eye contact in
public places, because eye contact usually leads to
conversation. I haven't called Gen all week, even though
Snookums isn't home and that's when we usually spend the
most time together. Other than the occasional e-mail to
friends or idle chit-chat with a cashier, I've
successfully avoided in-depth human contact with anyone
other than my children for the entire week. I'm not proud
of such an act, but it does give me insight into my state
of mind...I'm a fruitcake. At least now I don't have to
worry about avoiding sunlight, it's cold and cloudy out.
Maybe when Snookums comes home my mood will improve. I've
never been a social butterfly (I tried in high school,
cheerleading was the best I could muster) but, I've never
been a hermit, either.

I've managed to drop 2 pounds since Wednesday, go me! I
know I haven't been writing much about my weight, but it's
been going well. I haven't been working out as much, but
I've stuck to my sensible eating practices (because it's
my new way of life) and I'm still seeing results. All of
my clothes are fitting loose and I've had to remove a few
rings because of the risk of losing them. I nearly baked
one of them into a cupcake tonight. That would have been a
nice surprise for some little 1st grader. An emerald and
diamond right hand ring in the middle of their cupcake.
Fun.

I hope this novella has made up for my past few
uninteresting entries, not that this one is any more
engaging, but it is L-O-N-G. I'll be closing for now, Ciao.




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