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My Life Thus Far
2005-11-07 16:33:07 (UTC)

20" Rims On The Impala

This morning is feeling far more optimistic than yesterday
evening was feeling. Snookums has been far more attentive
after our infidelity conversation last week, so he helped
brighten my mood.

After writing, I made dinner ( shrimp caesar salad and
buttermilk buscuits, nothing fancy). Jumped rope a little,
and took a nice, hot bubble bath. Snookums took time away
from his football commentary show and we actually had a
conversation for about half an hour! I was shocked that he
took the initiative to induce a conversation, but I was
glad he did. We talked about how we need to help him work
at being more responsible with money. Maybe be a little
more accountable for his past actions and be happy with
the way his life is now (because we have a really great
life, even if he wants 20" rims on the Impala and a new
SUV and I won't let him. Gen knows why the Impala doesn't
need rims :) and as much as I don't give a crap about gas
mileage, I don't want the added burden of a ginormous car
note that comes with a fancy SUV). Despite sounding like
an attack-fest on Snookums, it wasn't, our conversation
was very productive and happy. I felt better afterwards
and enjoyed my bath even more, because I wasn't mulling
over nagging things in my head.

After my bath, we went to bed. I love lying in bed with
Snookums. He's so warm (his temperature) and loving (his
temperament) and I always feel so safe and loved when I'm
with him. Anyway, we talked some more about my feelings
about going back to work in January (part of me is happy,
part of me is sad) and we listened to Delilah on the radio
(some chick playing sappy love songs in the middle of the
night). One thing eventually led to another and we ended
up "connected at the hip" well, maybe not the hip, but a
similarly located body area. It was very slow, methodical
and lovely. I still can't figure out how he got in,
considering I was lying on my side and wearing pajama
shorts. Hmm? Anyway, by 10pm, we were asleep and I didn't
wake up until 7:30am. I didn't get the 10 hours I'd
planned, but my body decided 9 1/2 was good enough.

I've also come to the conclusion that I'm probably
dehydrated. I haven't been drinking enough water over the
past week and my coffee consumption has increased, due to
the colder weather. Coffee is a dieretic and makes you
retain water and then expel it. I've been consistently 1
or 2 pounds heavier than the 177 I was last Wednesday and
I haven't lost anything since then. I think it's because
I'm not taking in my usual 10 or 12 glasses of water. I've
just been too preoccupied. I can feel that I'm retaining
water in my tummy and the only way to stop the cycle of
bodily water-hording is to give your body all the water it
needs, so it doesn't think it's got to store it like a
cactus. Last night, before I went to bed I had a whole
bottle of water at once and this morning, I'm back at 177,
so I'm thinking my fluid levels are a bit off. I'll work
on that.

I'm pretty sure this entry is long enough, so I'll go have
breakfast (start my water therapy) and get ready for a
good walk. It actually isn't raining, so I'm going to
bundle Kiki into her snowsuit and take advantage of it!
I'm going to try to burn 1000 calories through exercise
today. I want to have the last 2 pounds towards my 175
goal off by Wednesday (weigh-in day). My next goals will
be 160 (what I weighed when I met Snookums) and 150 (my
officailly, no longer considered overweight at all
weight). They will both come in their own time. Right now,
175 is only 2 pounds away, so I'm focusing on that. Ciao!




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