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My Life Thus Far
2005-10-19 01:25:30 (UTC)

Crying My Heart Out

Today was one of those days. Like I use to have when I was
depressed. I didn't do anything, I didn't speak to anyone
(not in person, at least) and anything and everything
brought about the urge to cry my eyes out or tear someone
else's out. Either would of worked, but since I was alone
with only my precious baby, I opted for crying. That's how
Snookums found me when he got home. Sitting in front of
Kiki's highchair clutching a plate of rice cereal and
pureed bananas, in pajamas, crying my heart out. Not just
tears, but deep gut wrenching sobs. Why? I don't know.
Snookums pried the plate out of my hand, gave me a hug and
told me to take a shower while he finished feeding the
baby. I seized the opportunity to get out of the house by
myself. I had to run an errand. I got in the Impala,
cranked up the 60's Soul CD and I went to the post office
to drop off those pictures to the grandparents, I went to
pick Annie up from school and then I stopped at Subway for
dinner, because I was in no mood to cook. I'm feeling much
better now. There's something about listening to oldies
that makes me feel a little better. Although, I did have
to stifle a tear when Only The Strong Survive came on.

I'm going to go have a cookie. YES, I said it. I've been
sticking to my diet fairly well, but I'm in the mood for a
cookie and one damn chocolate chip cookie isn't going to
undo 2 months of hard work. I'm not giving the cookie that
much power. Ciao.




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