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My Life Thus Far
2005-09-24 17:08:50 (UTC)

A Beautiful Night, 196 In The Morning

Last night was a beautiful night. I don't usually use
sappy cliches, but there really isn't any other way to
express how it felt. Usually sex for Snookums and I is a
bit rushed (either due to impending interruption, or
extreme fatigue and the need for sleep). But last night it
was slow, methodical, almost desperate, but very loving.
Afterwards, we fell asleep curled up together. Snookums,
with his arms wrapped around me. The way that he held on
to me, I knew that he'd missed me very much and not just
for sexual reasons. Its breathtaking knowing you are loved
so much. It's a feeling I've been looking for my whole
life. I've finally found it.

This morning I woke up feeling SOOOO GOOD, that it seemed
nothing could make me feel better. Then I stepped on the
scale and got a surprise. I'm down to ******196****** I'm
in shock. I've lost a pound every day for the last 3 days.
I know this will come to an end eventually, but I'm so
enjoying the ride! I haven't changed a single thing I'm
doing. I'm not exercising more (in fact, I've only been
exercising 8 times a week, instead of the 12 I was doing)
and I haven't cut my calories. I don't know why I'd
stopped losing, I don't know why it started up again so
rapidly. I'm just happy! 196 is my pre-pregnancy weight,
so I've lost all of my baby fat and now I'm working on my
already-fat-before-baby-fat. I haven't been as euphoric as
I am now, EVER in my life. Even when I lost 50 pounds the
first time. I wasn't as happy. I did it because I was
tired of my mother telling me I was fat. I didn't do it
for me or my health and I did it very quickly and quite
unhealthily. Now, it's all about me and what feeds my
spirit and makes me whole. And it feels so fabulous. Ciao
for now!




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