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My Life Thus Far
2005-09-21 16:46:07 (UTC)

I Reached 199 Today

Now that I'm not in as much emotional turmoil, finding
things to write about twice a day is getting tough. I'm
getting tired of talking about exercise and weight all of
the time. I'm getting into a routine and it's not
something new anymore. It truely has become a lifestyle
and no one talks incessantly about the normal, mundane
aspects of their life. It's like talking about your
shampoo and toothpaste every morning. Who cares? I will
tell you that I reached 199 today. I'm happy about it, but
it was totally expected. I know that with the way I'm
living, I shouldn't expect anything less than to lose
weight. I may not be bouncing off the walls with
excitement, but trust me. I'm very delighted to be doing
well.

I've settled into a routine without Snookums being here.
I'm not sick with lonliness and fear. I'm cheerful,
content, and happy. I know that when Snookums does
eventually go on westpac, I'll be able to more than just
handle it. I'll embrace the opportunity to reconnect with
myself as a person. And take a break from my role as
simply wife and mother. I'll always be both, but if I lose
myself in the process, I'm no good to neither my children
or my husband.

I noticed this morning how clean the house has been since
Snookums has been gone. I never realized how messy he is
until he's been away for an extended period of time. Our
bed is neat (only half of it is rumpled, instead of the
bedding in a twisted, crumpled heap on the floor), the
dishes have been so minimal that I haven't used the
dishwasher once since he's been gone. I just wash up
whatever pan or plate I use and that's it. The bathroom is
staying clean, the floors don't need to be polished as
often (wood floors are beautiful, but maintaining them
SUCKS)I haven't cleaned them once since he's been gone.
Usually, I would have to touch them up daily to keep them
looking their best. No sweeping or vacuuming. Is it
possible for one man to create so much disarray?

Well, I've started bleeding again. I managed to go about 2
weeks, wow. I can't believe how long this has been going
on. Amanda is also on the Depo stot and she said that she
went through the same think for 3 months. They gave her
phenergan and the bleeding stopped after she got the next
shot. Snookums doesn't want me to get the next shot. The
side-effects aren't worth the benefits. I'll have to make
an appointment for some other form of birth control, since
Snookums isn't a big fan of the condom and I don't want
another baby just yet. I've still got a few weeks before
the shot wears off.

I'm going to go now. My goal today is to get my laundry
done and sweep the floors (just sweep, no waxing :) There
really isn't much else to do. Ciao for now.




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