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My Life Thus Far
2005-09-09 04:47:12 (UTC)

Why Am I Bleeding?

Everything is all out of order today. I'll be really glad
when my feet are better, so I can get back to my life. I
miss going on my walks. They keep me centered. I've been
couped up in the house all day, and I'm getting a little
stir-crazy. I remember when I didn't even want to set foot
outside of my bedroom, now I'm complaining about being
stuck in the house. It's amazing how quickly things change.

I think something is wrong with my girl parts (that's what
Annie calls them). Over the last 4 months, since Kiki was
born. I've been having unexplained bleeding. I know that
breastfeeding causes spotting and the Depo shot also
causes spotting, but I've been having more than just
spotting. Every week or two I just start bleeding (heavy
like a normal period, but way more frequently and with
some menacing-looking clots, to boot). I don't know if I
should go to the doctor, or if it's nothing to worry
about. I'm not fond of doctors, especially gynocologists
(I think it has alot to do with my abuse). Sometimes
doctors have a way of making you feel like you're
overreacting. I hate being patronized, so I don't even
bother going. I went to my postpardum check-up and
everything was fine. Nothing could have gone that wrong in
2 months, could it? I keep telling myself that it's going
to go away on it's own, but it isn't. Just when I think
it's done, I start up again in a few days. I bet if I make
an appointment, it'll stop and I'll end up looking like a
hypocondriac. I think I'll call the ask-a-nurse tomorrow
and see what she's got to say about it.

Tonight was the beginning of the new season of The OC.
Don't ask me why, but I love that show (and so does
Snookums) we never miss a week. I certainly don't identify
with the characters (spoiled, rich kids that can't keep
themselves out of trouble), but it's fun to watch. I tried
to watch the show after The OC. The Reunion, but I
couldn't make myself stay interested in the plot. I don't
foresee it lasting very long.

I've got nothing left to write about, so I guess I'll make
my exit. I'm going to go work out on my ball (if I don't
bleed to death first) and read in bed before I pass out.
I'm feeling a teeny bit sleepy. Ciao.




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