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My Life Thus Far
Two Blisters and Nothing To Show For It
I don't feel as happy today as I have the past couple of
weeks. I don't know why. I went for my walk this morning
without much enthusiasm. I just didn't feel like going. I
walked twice as long and twice as far, in the hopes that
I'd feel proud of the extra work I did, but it didn't
really work. All I got out of it was a little dehydration,
blisters on my feet and sore muscles. I'm going to do
Pilates later, because it doesn't require me to be on my
feet. Thank goodness I have tomorrow off, to get over my
blisters. I don't want to miss any workouts, even if I'm
not totally, 100% motivated. I'm starting to feel a teeny-
tiny bit discouraged because I'm not making the progress I
want. I know I'm going about this the right way, but it's
still hard to break the old habits of not eating and
working out feverishly to lose the weight quickly. We had
salmon for dinner tonight and I felt bad about eating it
because of the fat, even if it is the good kind of fats. I
wondered the whole time I was eating it "Is this going to
prevent me from losing another pound today?" All of this
discouragement stems back to my inability to keep myself
off the scale each morning. The past 2 mornings I haven't
seen any improvement and I'm getting down about it. It's
like all of a sudden I hit a wall. I'm not far enough into
my weight loss journey to have reached a plateau, but it
seems that I have. I'm really just expecting too much too
soon. I won't fall off the wagon. I absolutely refuse to
take a step backwards. Tomorrow is another day and another
chance to take a step forward. Everyone has an off day and
today is mine.
I'm going to go do Pilates while I still have the
slightest flicker of motivation. Maybe I can eek out a
couple sets of crunches while I'm at it. Pray that I'm in
a better frame of mind in the morning.
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