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My Life Thus Far
2005-09-02 04:22:21 (UTC)

A Beautiful Sunset, Pilates and A Trip To San Diego

Today was a good day and I'm feeling so fulfilled and
peaceful. I didn't finish both workouts before Snookums
got home, because he came home early, but it turned out to
be a great thing. We went grocery shopping (I turned
Snookums on to my thinking and he's going to eat
healthier), we put everything away and I made dinner.
After dinner I gave Annie a bath, Snookums put her to bed
and that's when I went for my second walk. It was almost
dusk and the sunset was so beautiful over the water (we
live on Puget Sound), so I took advantage of the gorgeous
view and walked along Bay St. which follows along the
water's edge. By the time I got home it was dark and my
body was so warm and tingly. I decided that for my cool
down, I'd do Pilates. Now I'm in a state of bliss, because
I am so loose, limber and relaxed. I'm feeling so rewarded
by the exercise I'm doing. Not only am I losing weight,
but I'm regaining some of the flexibility I had when I was
a young cheerleader, not thinking about getting fat. It's
almost like the abilities I had then never left me, I just
wasn't using them. Snookums likes that I can put my knees
behind my head, though I'm not sure why. I'm reconnecting
with the body of my youth (like I'm so old) and it feels
amazing.

Snookums gave me some potentially upsetting news today. I
say potentially upsetting, because if he had told me this
2 weeks ago I probably would have had a nervous breakdown
and died of a panic attack, while hyperventilating. He's
going on a training mission to San Diego the end of this
month. It's only for 7 days, but if he would have told me
that a couple of weeks ago, it wouldn't have mattered if
it was 7 hours, I wouldn't have been able to handle it.
Now, I'm okay with it. I'm even looking forward to the
time alone. I'll spend time doing things with Annie and
Kiki. I'll make the most of it, knowing he's getting the
training he needs to do well in his career. I love him and
I'll miss him, there's no doubt about that, but I don't
depend on him for every breath I take and everything I do.
Like I use to. I can still be okay, even with him gone.
After all, I am a Navy wife. My family is Navy, I know
nothing else, but the Navy. This is a cake walk compared
to a 9 month WestPac (a very long trip to the Western
Pacific Islands, Japan, Guam, Hawaii and Australia). I
wonder how much weight I'll lose while he's gone?

I'm going to go take a long, hot shower. I think my
muscles will be sore in the morning, but there is nothing
better than that feeling of pain, knowing you worked
yourself well the day before. I love it. Ciao.




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