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My Life Thus Far
2005-08-06 02:16:43 (UTC)

Just a Lazy Day

Today was just a lazy day. I think I spent about 10 hours
of it asleep. Snookums stayed home with me today. I think
he took the day off in preparation of me completely
melting down at the hearing yesterday. Annie went to
summer camp, as usual, and Kiki did what she always does.
Eat, sleep, poop, repeat. She went to bed at 10:30pm last
night and didn't wake up until 7am, so I got a full 9
hours of sleep. She had a big breakfast and went right
back to sleep until 11am, ate again, went back to sleep,
slept until 2:30pm, ate, went back to sleep until 5:30pm,
ate again. Now it's almost 7pm and she's been up since.
Anyway, aside from several diaper changes, I slept when
she slept. I haven't done that since she's been born and
it felt good. Snookums held me most of the time. He left
around 2pm to pick up some things for dinner and to
retrieve Annie from summer camp. I feel like a new person.
I'm not emotionally or physically tired. Yesterday was a
catalyst and I honestly feel better. Seeing my step-father
being sentanced and then being escorted out of the
courtroom in handcuffs, anklecuffs and a bright orange
jump suit was hard, but I know that not only is it the new
beginning of my life, but maybe his too. He won't have
what he did hanging over his head anymore (if it was) and
he'll be able to start over. He's only going to be in
prison a year. I hope he doesn't do what he did to me to
anyone else. Honestly, I don't think he will, but that may
just be me being a fool. I can't imagine anyone letting
him get that close to their child (unless he remarries)
and he isn't a violent person. Once, again. Maybe I'm just
being a fool.

Snookums is in a playful mood, and although I'm not
feeling depressed, I'm not in the mood for it. Usually
he's laid back and calm, but once in awhile he gets into
stupid-mode and torments everyone. Hopefully it ends soon,
or I'll have to kill him (just joking). If I kill him,
then I'd have to get a job and that just wouldn't do :)I
think he's finished now. He's doing the dishes, instead of
trying to scare the crap out of Annie.

I think I'll paint Annie's fingers and toe nails for her.
I haven't done that in awhile and she always loves it when
I do. I'm trying to make a more conscious effort to do
more with Annie. I colored Strawberry Shortcake pictures
in her coloring book today before dinner, which was fun
for her, I'm sure. She's taking a bubble bath now. I need
to give her hair a good washing. It's so long and thick,
that in the summer time it makes her head itch if it isn't
washed really well. I wonder when she'll be ready to cut
it? Secretly, I don't ever want her to cut it, but I know
the day will come when it needs to be done. I was thinking
that maybe she could donate it to Locks of Love. They make
wigs for little girls and women who lose their hair to
chemotherapy and hair loss diseases. She might like that
idea. I looked into modeling agencies for her. I found one
in Seattle that might work out well. I have to send them
pictures of her and her measurements, whenever I get
around to it. She's not completely sure what modeling is,
so I need to make sure it's something she really wants to
do, before I put too much time, money or effort into
getting her into it.

Well, I'm going to go get Annie out of the tub now. Man,
it feels good knowing the weekend is here and I don't have
to do anything, except relax and regain my mental and
physical strength back.




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