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My Life Thus Far
2005-07-30 22:49:12 (UTC)

You Shouldn't Take It For Granted

I had a pretty good day yesterday and I'm doing really
well so far today, too. I can only hope that the feeling
lasts. It seems like I went so long enduring hopelessness
that it's hard to believe I can be happy. I'm not sure
what brought on the depression I've been living with, but
I'm hoping it just disappears back to wherever it came
from. Is that possible? Can it just go away or am I bi-
polar and just having a high?

Yesterday I went grocery shopping with Snookums, which
wasn't such a momentous occasion, but it was a step back
into normalcy. Just getting out into the sun was a
pleasant sensation. I've been running from it for so long
that I forgot how good the sun can feel. I don't like the
heat so much, but the warmth on my skin isn't as scary as
I made myself to think.

I haven't done much of anything today. It's almost 4pm and
I just got out of my pajamas, but it wasn't because I
couldn't drag myself out of bed. Snookums and I had
a "love in". I'll leave it at that. I don't think my
husband wants our sex life made public across the
internet, but you get the idea. It was the first time in a
long time and I'd forgotten how good it could feel. Now I
remember.

Happiness isn't something you should take for granted.
I've had so precious little of it in my lifetime that I
certainly don't. So, if your happy, BE GRATEFUL.




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