I cut myself

Welc0meXtoXmyXlife
2004-11-06 02:43:48 (UTC)

xXx ..feel like im on some damn good drugs.. xXx

hey.
ok, its like 9:30pm...i tried to get online @ 7pm but
alexa took a long ass time, and i was cold, so i sat under
the blankets beside momma while she was sleeping, and i
tired...and tired...and tired..er...and i fell asleep, and
then alexa woke me up at 9:15pm. *btw everybody, My new
screen name is xXxW0undedxXx the O is a zero *
but yeah, anyways. Treebz rode my bus home today. and i
it was awesome. i love it when she rides home with me. but
today in 4th period destiny was like "im riding ur bus
home with you" and i was like "ok.." and she was like "im
sitting with you" and i was like "no ur not" and she was
like "yes i am" and i was like "no...ur not, treebz is
sitting with me" and she was like "we'll see"
and then Destiny tried to tell me how to wear my fucking
make up, and she tried to wipe some of it off, which
pissed me the fuck off b/c it takes a half hour to do it
the way i did it today. and she wouldn't fucking stop.
so then, after school, i was standing with treebz, and
destiny came over and started her shit again...and tried
wiping it off again, and i saw treebz...she delt with it
for a minute or so, and then she like...exploded on
destiny.rofl. she was like "dude!! leave her the fuck
alone! she dont want u touchin her!!" and destiny got
pissed, but gave up and was like "ok, im done" and yeah..i
wanted to like grab treebz and yeah her, b/c it was so
fuckin cute.
so then on the bus ride home, the sun was all comin in my
window, and it looked like somebody had popped the sun
like it was a balloon filled with sunlight, and that when
it was popped, it went all over treebz...b/c the sunlight
was in her face, and her hair, and she looked really damn
cute. and yeah...
ok, so I walked half way home with treebz...and then i
gave her a hug *we stopped at our garage today!!!!* and
then i walked home...ate macaronni and cheese...and then
walked the dog to josh's to get a recipe offa debi...and
THEN i went to gramma's and she took me to get the stuff,
and i left skye at grams till i got back. and yeah, i
bought alla the stuff i needed, AND A LION KING PEZ
DISPENSER THINGY!!! and yeah..i love that thing...but they
didn't have the monkey *Pouts*
ok, i bought smelly candles...FUCK I FORGOT MY CANDLES IN
GRAMMA"S CAR!!!!!!!!!!
i bought a book called "Find Me" by rosie O'donnell and i
bought a air freshner, and hmm...ooh! i bought whip cream
in a can so i could do whipits b/c i never did them
before. rofl..they're amusing.
and then i had gramma take me to dairy queen and i
got...can u guess what i got?? thats right treebz...I got
a Mocha moolatte with extra chocolate mixed in.
and me and gramma sat and watched the sun set, and i told
her how god hates me, and how he wont talk to me, and how
he wants me to die. and i told her how my life has gone to
shit since the josh thing happened.
and i was like "i have like...2 friends gramma, i have
treebz, who's my bestfriend, and then i have Krista..who
is in the same situation as i am"
and gramma was like "god gave you a narrow and rocky path
so he'd know if u can get through it, b/c he knows that on
the other side of that path, there's something waiting for
you" and the devil will give you an easy path to live, if
u worship him...and i kinda understood it....but...i didnt.
i dunno.
anyways. Destiny showed josh the note she and i passed
back and forth. about how i wish he'd tell me he didn't
care about me anymore, to my face, so i could have some
closure and i could move on....and he was like "i care"
and i was like "it doesn't seem like it" and then i turned
around *i was @ his house* and walked away.
then i went to the church on 1st street by whipkey
heating, and sat there with my dog and cried for like a
half hour.
then, i came home after i got alla the
shit i needed, and i crunched up oreos, and made chocolate
pudding. i bought little cups to put the stuff in...so
yeah...anyways.
I gotta go now.
SHIT! i forgot plastic spoons!!!
Well, i g2g.
I LOVE YOU TREEBZ
...josh...




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