I cut myself

Welc0meXtoXmyXlife
2004-09-15 03:14:20 (UTC)

xXx happy...for the first time in awhile xXx

hey! ok, so its like 11pm...
and guess what!!!
i got the balls up to ask sean to hang out...and he
said "yeah"
so, i took a shower...had 2 get the sex juices offa me...
and stuff.
so, i walked to convinent and waited for him, and we
walked up to gast, and these guys tried to sell sean
pott...
OMFG TREEBZ I HAVE TO TELL U SOMETHING!!!!!
anyways i'll tell ya in a minute
so me and sean were walkin at gast, b/c sean needed to
piddle..and i was waiting outside the bathroom, and this
was after these dudes walked down the road a bit...and
they saw us walking back ...and they were like "what about
ur girl?!" and i was like "AHH!! sean...don't let them get
me!" and hid behind him.
so we dodged them by goin thru an alley. lol..we're
sneaky.
then, we walked up towards the junior high, and up around
jefferson, and back down towards the corner store...
OMFG SEAN!! the voice box thing!!! rofl..i want one!!
GIVE ME SOME OF UR CANCER U SLUT FUCK!!!!!
rofl
anyways....we came back here, at like 10pm. and we
listened to music, and OMFG SEAN I HEARD THE DOODA
LOO..NOISE FROM THE AIM THING IN THAT SONG. I SWEAR!!!
ok, anyways..back on subject...
we listened to music, and then he played with my pussy...
GARFUNKLE, my kitty.
and i talked to my momma on the phone...
then when i got offa the phone, I walked with sean down to
the curb and we hugged for like a minute or 2..*sean hugs
always make me feel better*
and he left...
i came in here to mommas room and i could smell something
yummy...so i was lookin for the smell...and i smelled my
shirt and it smells like sean...so i keep sniffin it...but
only cause i like the smell. I love you sean. you're my
bestest friend in the whole world..always.

OMFG TREEBZ!!! I called my mom at work to let her know
that i was home, and she was like "umm, u know that
commercial where the boy opens the box and finds a paper
that says "we need to talk- mom"??? and i was
like .."yeah.."
and she goes, "i got nosey and read ur note from treebz,
and i hope ur not getting stoned with her...i mean, i
believe you and all, and so until i see signs that u are
smoking, i wont have a drug test done on you"
so i was like ..ok.

and she gave me this lecture about how there's only a few
ppl she trusts with me, and sean is one of them, and how
she's so afraid that he's gonna end up dieing from alla
the shit he's doing, and how it'll distroy me, because
he's the greatest person ever, to me...and how it'll hurt
to lose him b/c he's my bestfriend, and how i should talk
to him...and alla that...

but i don't know what to say to him,.. i mean..i'm gonna
sound real dumb saying stuff like "sean, i really love
you, and i can't live my life without you, and im so
afraid that if u keep things up, ur gonna end up doing the
wrong thing, and ur gonna die. and i don't know how i
could handle that, or if i could at all. and i know i ask
alot of you, but, please, just be careful with what ur
doing...you're the only person thats ever saved me..and
now, im trying to save you, but..i just dont know
how...because..im afraid of u getting mad at me...and
hating me, and i'd rather u hate me than for u to kill
urself...but it'd still hurt me really bad, either way"

wow...i think, i just said it.
I love you Josh,
Sean,treebz,kat,jamie,tom tom...
megan




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