I cut myself

Welc0meXtoXmyXlife
2004-09-01 22:24:47 (UTC)

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hey, the title, has no meaning, just cuteness..teehee.
today was ok, school was ok, did the usual...work, but
hey, i didn't fall asleep. rofl.
i wrote jamie a note, i'll prolly type it to him or
something. rofl, thats SO ghetto.
anyways, after school i was kinda in a crappy mood b/c
josh was telling me about alla his new friends, and how he
got fashed by some girl, and she showed him her thongs and
alla that, and then i realized, i don't have any friends,
other than treebz and kat. I can't see my bestfriend,
because he has a life of his own...and, when i do see him,
i get lectured about it...or a guilt trip.
and so, i was upset, and josh was like "well i don't wanna
hear about it megan because its your fault because u wont
talk to people first" and i'm thinking "yeah, josh because
its so easy being me...right," i cant just talk to
somebody, it scares me, i'm afraid of rejection. so i
figure, i'll just go on, like i always do..."definion of
depression" thats my motto. anyways, josh and axl were in
the basement while i was laying on the couch and they were
talkin bout whenever josh coulda got layed by some
marrissa girl at macs..and i'm thinking "ok, i just wanna
go home and talk to jamie" because jamie's cool, and he's
nice. AND HE'S GONNA WRITE ME A RAP SONG AND SING IT TO
ME!!! yay! i can't wait. *claps hands*
so, its like 6pm...and josh is going to axl's house. and
i'm at home, alone...till i have 2 wake up for school.
mom's gonna try to get me to go to the river, so i'm gonna
go.
Jamie, i'll be online at 10pm. I love you.
luve,
Megan




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