I cut myself

Welc0meXtoXmyXlife
2004-07-16 04:28:06 (UTC)

xXx Hoochie?! xXx

hey. ok, today at school was fun...i guess, but then after
school i was home all day. Josh called at like 9:30pm, and
i talked to him for about an hour, he got mad at me b/c i
was going walking in a tanktop...and he said i was being a
hoochie, and that he was mad b/c i never wear tanktops
infront of him...then he cried b/c he's down there, and he
doesn't have anybody...I felt bad, but there really wasn't
much i could say, b/c the reason he don't have friends
here, is b/c he never goes out of the house. I love josh
with alla my heart. and i know he loves me, but tonight he
upset me, b/c he said i was acting like a hoochie..and i
was like "WHY?! because for the first night you've been
gone i've decided that i want to go out?!" and he was
like "no. b/c of what ur wearing!" and then i'm
thinking...its not like anybody's gonna want my ugly ass
anyway. i hate that..i mean, i love him for caring so
much..but he should trust me more. I still trust him after
alla the times he's cheated and almost cheated on me. so,
i think i'm the one thats more into this relationship.
well maybe josh is into it equally. but before he wasn't.
so me and lexa went walking around, and these guys kept
going past us, with their music up...like they were
cool..*rolls eyes*
i ignored them, and talked to lexa about me and Josh.
then we went to mom's work and talked to momma and Candi
about josh and my sex life...lmfao, that was a trip.
then on our way home, lexa called jeff, and he wanted to
talk to me, so I talked to him and he told me i'm too
young to drink and alla this crap *he was drunk* lmao. he
wants me and lexa to come to his house in michigan..LOL no.
didn't see sean today, thats ok,
he' prolly went to ashllii's. sucks her mom don't want me
around her.
she's the shit. i love her alot. and i really miss
that girl. she made me laugh, and she was the only other
person i knew that twitched and shook when they got
high..just like i do. lmfao. I LOVE YOU ASHLLII!!!!
Well i need 2 get to bed.
I LOVE JOSH DICE!!!
*megan*




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