I cut myself

Welc0meXtoXmyXlife
2003-05-27 22:40:26 (UTC)

hester told josh to break up with me.

hey. school sucked ass.. i hated it. Jimmy was all over me
durring lunch. he was leanin over me.. and he was like an
inch from my face at one point. i was like "woah, back
up... i need room to breath"
I'm not gonna be able to deal with josh leaving. i can't
take it now. and he's not even gone yet.
Maddeline wrote me a note saying she " knows me and and
josh are meant to be together"
I wish.
Hester told josh he should break up with me, and i dunno
why she'd say that, she's supposed to be my bestfriend. i'm
so upset that she said that.
Cody Howard, finally asked Jennifer Hyde out.
I'm not gonna date anyone for a long time when josh moves,
i wanna wait, and see if he comes back or not. and i think
it would be wrong to date someone when i'm still inlove
with josh
he's on his way down here.. or he said he is.
we'll probably do the usual.. hang out.
and then he'll go home, and i'll cry, or cut myself, or
something. actually, i haven't cut myself in a long time...
be proud of me. *i was thinking* maybe i'm a bad gf.. thats
why josh is leaving. because of how i used to bring up the
maddeline thing, and how i hit him..:( tear.
and how at tony's i told him he should go out with
maddeline. I take it all back.. i swear. i forgive him for
kissing her. and i'm sorry for hitting him. and for saying
he should go out with maddeline. I Just want him to
stay!!!!!! *he wont*
i'll write later.




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