theolor
MyDarknessLives
2015
- February 2015
- 05 - Is it over?
- 05 - My Dark Passenger and Music
- 08 - Tonight is the night
- 23 - Therapy makes me tired.
- 25 - Feeling Left Out
- 26 - Mixed Day
- 26 - Left out again?
- 27 - Stubborn
- 27 - Library
- 27 - Down swing
- 28 - Confrontation
- March 2015
- 01 - Nothingness and Victory
- 01 - Anxious
- 01 - Knew it was coming....
- 01 - Subway for Lunch
- 02 - Decent into the unknown ..
- 04 - Was alirght
- 07 - Losing hope sometimes
- 07 - depressed
- 08 - Today was bad
- 08 - So far so.. bad?
- 09 - Better
- 10 - Pleasant and diary picture
- 13 - Interregnum
- 13 - Finally
- 14 - In Control
- 14 - When he is done
- 15 - Bummed
- 16 - Level 5
- 16 - Mixing songs
- 17 - Pain
- 19 - Something had to be done.
- 23 - BPD?
- 26 - Nostalgia
- 27 - Hatred
- 28 - All Nighter
- 30 - I want to change my name
- 31 - The source
- April 2015
- 01 - Angry
- 02 - A Little Worried
- 04 - I was right
- 05 - Emptiness
- 06 - Fast 7
- 08 - Nobody
- 10 - well today
- 10 - All over the board
- 11 - Walmart Beggar
- 13 - No Car
- 13 - Sad and Alone
- 13 - weed
- 14 - Empty Day
- 15 - Song of the week
- 15 - Car Fixed!
- 16 - The Babadook
- 17 - Friday Story
- 18 - So far
- 19 - Posers
- 20 - 2 Song of the week/day
- 21 - feeling good today
- 22 - It's in my eye!
- 23 - Theorist
- 23 - It was a joke
- 24 - Feeling empty
- 25 - Terrible day
- 26 - Depression
- 27 - April 27th early
- 27 - April 27th Late
- 28 - April 28th Early-ish
- 28 - Song of the week Last of ..
- 29 - Nervous
- 30 - One step forward 2 steps ..
- 30 - My cat has a diary!
- May 2015
- 01 - A football field size step ..
- 02 - Surprised
- 03 - Tired of pork chops!!!
- 04 - Increase
- 05 - Little sleep
- 05 - slightly better
- 06 - a little mix
- 07 - 80th Entry
- 08 - Beautiful Sleep... That ..
- 08 - And there it goes!
- 09 - Depressed again
- 11 - Stressed
- 12 - Anti-Social Behavior
- 13 - Service
- 14 - ONE BIG F (maybe a D)
- 15 - Eating Out
- 16 - Hosipital
- 17 - Game and 90th Entry
- 17 - I can't help myself!
- 18 - Down
- 19 - Left and Right
- 20 - 1 in 3
- 21 - Maybe Monday
- 22 - Disgust
- 23 - Still don't want him.
- 24 - Coffee
- 24 - Hurting
- 25 - 100th ENTRY
- 25 - More Swimming
- 26 - Depersonalization/Derealizat ..
- 26 - No swimming
- 27 - Sunburn
- 28 - Rum a yum yum
- 29 - dream
- 30 - Sad
- 31 - Life Is Indeed Strange
- June 2015
- 01 - Bored
- 02 - Doctors
- 04 - yesterday and today
- 05 - Not going to happen
- 06 - Finally
- 07 - I'm an Idiot
- 09 - 115th
- 10 - Unstable
- 12 - Generocity
- 13 - Alone
- 14 - not all is quiet on the ..
- 15 - Empty
- 16 - I have a mean side
- 17 - Friend
- 18 - UPnDown Day
- 19 - Pleasant Day
- 20 - Store
- 20 - I lost my heart
- 21 - Depression Poem
- 22 - Pool
- 23 - That one Rare day
- 25 - Nope
- 26 - Super Depressed
- 27 - Still depressed
- 28 - Creeper
- 28 - Feeling Betrayed
- 29 - Grey world
- 30 - $800
- July 2015
- 01 - What's this I overhear?
- 01 - Mr. Robot
- 02 - Day 1
- 03 - Messy night
- 04 - Not bad
- 06 - Low roll
- 07 - Bad night
- 07 - Better day
- 08 - Creepy pastas
- 10 - Slipping
- 11 - Hot
- 12 - Eye Swells
- 13 - Death and Depression
- 14 - Back pain
- 16 - lift chair
- 17 - WHY?!?!?
- 17 - Nurse Monday Morning
- 18 - GREAT, for the most part
- 19 - I miss my cat
- 20 - mixed meetings
- 21 - Old Books
- 22 - Well....
- 22 - The Bad, The Worse, and the ..
- 24 - Hospital again
- 25 - Time flies
- 27 - Lonely
- 28 - Getting better
- 29 - Out
- 31 - Easy 8
- August 2015
- 01 - Pig
- 02 - scars
- 03 - Great Day
- 05 - Site is Wonky
- 06 - Blah
- 06 - Song I feel connected too
- 07 - One last time
- 08 - Through the ringer
- 09 - Mydarknesslives
- 11 - Past few days
- 13 - Darkness
- 14 - I Win
- 16 - A nice change of pace
- 18 - No Interent
- 19 - good mood
- 20 - I WAS ACCEPTED!
- 21 - A cool day
- 23 - Depression is winning
- 25 - Pokemon!
- 25 - A Change
- 26 - Alone 2
- 28 - Easing my Pain
- 29 - Hollow
- 31 - sleep or no sleep
- September 2015
- 01 - feeling good
- 04 - days
- 06 - lazy
- 08 - Don't know what to think
- 10 - I don't know
- 11 - Doctor visit 9/11/15
- 12 - Anime
- 13 - Triggers
- 16 - Fighting
- 18 - Bumper
- 19 - Laundry - 200th Entry
- 20 - papers please
- 22 - Readers Choice
- 23 - sleep schedule
- 25 - To Battle! For the Emperor!
- 26 - cuts
- 28 - bad news
- October 2015
- 02 - Made up
- 07 - Sex Life and Derealization
- 08 - Depression again
- 10 - Soldier on
- 14 - So Selfish
- 24 - computer issues
- 26 - Tired and hollow
- 31 - Halloween
- November 2015
- 02 - Overall
- 06 - call of duty
- 09 - eye checkup
- 11 - Let it snow
- 13 - Getting Sick
- 16 - Gym
- 18 - Disgusted
- 20 - Clique
- 27 - Been a while
- December 2015
- 01 - Vacuum
- 03 - The C word
- 04 - Nothing
- 05 - I am sorry
- 08 - The S Word
- 09 - All or Nothing?
- 11 - Intense!
- 13 - Experiment
- 19 - morning
- 22 - GTA
- 23 - Pain 2
- 26 - Christmas
- 27 - The most perfect dream
- 30 - dreams
2016
- January 2016
- 06 - Alone 3
- 07 - slightly worse
- 08 - Best dream ever p2
- 13 - First real lucid dream
- 15 - no luck
- 19 - no name and fed up
- 23 - flu
- 27 - Services
- 28 - asking too much
- February 2016
- 03 - Windows 10
- 07 - Depersonalization
- 08 - One whole year!
- 10 - A glimmer of hope?
- 15 - Exhausted = Me
- 24 - Attachment
- March 2016
- 04 - Pain
- 10 - happy
- 11 - I should have known
- 13 - Emotionless
- 22 - No Jinxing myself
- 24 - no title
- 29 - Ungrateful Brat
- 30 - existing
- April 2016
- 07 - Is it dead?
- 10 - I can feel it
- 11 - lockbox
- 18 - hit hard
- 22 - I need help
- 23 - Someone cares?
- 26 - nostalgia
- 28 - Still hope for humanity?
- May 2016
- 05 - Truth
- 08 - some hope?
- 20 - Companion
- 23 - Stressed and Exhausted
- June 2016
- 02 - What a night
- 14 - how I really see myself
- 16 - Glass half full
- 18 - friend's day out
- 22 - car accident
- 25 - only just a dream
- 29 - Breakdown and Weird Dream
- July 2016
- 06 - worthless
- 19 - delicious pain
- 23 - Friend?Brother?Enemy?Bully?P ..
- 28 - Enter Emotion
- 30 - Goodbye Friendship, Cannot ..
- August 2016
- 02 - Death spared me?
- 17 - no medicine
- 17 - Tortured soul, Past me, me ..
- 17 - me myself and I
- 18 - I Love the dark
- 19 - oh this emotion
- 20 - Withdrawal
- 24 - Paradise
- 27 - My minority
- September 2016
- 02 - What an intense high
- 07 - Never felt this good in my ..
- 09 - Thinking back
- 11 - numbness
- 16 - Why do I feel this pain?
- 26 - Hide and seek
- October 2016
- 08 - MyDaRkN3SsLiv3s
- 25 - Family
- 25 - I'm sorry I couldn't help
- November 2016
- 01 - Just a dream
- 06 - worthless/hope
- 15 - Amulets
- 30 - Comfort
- December 2016
- 12 - Lucky
2017
- January 2017
- 01 - If I could just understand
- 16 - Unhappy Birthday
- 20 - Real Friend
- February 2017
- 05 - 2 years
- March 2017
- 30 - Magick consequences
- May 2017
- 04 - So scared
- August 2017
- 02 - Some kind of battle
- 03 - My Car
- 07 - Hole
- 10 - A traumatizing dream
- 14 - Helping out
- 22 - Dark mist
- September 2017
- 18 - Good Pace
- October 2017
- 11 - Old sadness
- December 2017
- 02 - Icy world
2018
- February 2018
- 15 - 3 years
- July 2018
- 13 - Uncertain
- November 2018
- 18 - oh well
2021
- February 2021
- 21 - What Happened
- May 2021
- 20 - how I am
- June 2021
- 02 - Crossfaded and thoughts
- 03 - Walgreens Meltdown
- 09 - really thankful
- 10 - Almost Caught
- 22 - car accident
- July 2021
- 11 - family drama
- 12 - self-harm
- 16 - peace
- 21 - Wednesday, July 21st, 2021 ..
- September 2021
- 15 - My own heaven?
2022
- January 2022
- 12 - Was I a bad person?
- June 2022
- 16 - what?
2023
- April 2023
- 06 - A lot of change
- June 2023
- 24 - Missing mom
- July 2023
- 12 - changes
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About:
Hey, my name is Anthony or Tony but I prefer to be called Anthony. I was named after Saint Anthony - the patron saint of lost objects/souls/people etc. I believe I was put into this world by God to help people and it makes me happy to see people smile and the light in their eyes when you do something nice for them. I am very spiritual and pray daily, I like Emo and Punk Rock music, Green Day, Linkin Park, and My Chemical Romance are my favorite bands.
I have BPD and Bipolar II