Molly I cant sleep, Im so worried about our future here. I have rented this house and I dont know how I am going to pay the rent when the money runs out. Im frustrated with C he sits here and wont call for jobs he thinks its beneath him. I am ringing around and willing to do anything and he is sitting here waiting for things to happen, when I have told him what he needs to do and he wont do it. Im starting to resent him. After 20 odd years of looking after kids and working full time and running a home all for him to fulfill his career nd he sits here and waits for me to find work. Im angry at him, he sits here waiting for this high flying job to come when he knows he is wasting our money waiting and wont do anything at least something to bring some money in. I am devastated what do I do, I insisted on coming here I insisted on this life and now it haas slapped me so hard that I am now realising my dream of living here my whole life is turning into the nightmare I so hoped it wouldnt be. I pray like I have never prayed and I seek some sort of answers but I dont know what to do... |