sidra M FIRST LOVE V.S. ARRANGED MARRIAGE My first love Mitchel Ray want's me back I absolutely can not believe it. I'm the happiest girl on earth but at the same time I'm the saddest because I'm starting to think it's a little bit to late. It all started when Mitchel asked me for a picture of myself I sent him one and he texted back " Your pretty!" I told him thanks and from there it lead to flirting and talking about our past and our good memories. eventually he finally uttered those words i been longing to hear. He finally said "I Love You" I told him I love him too and he asked me to run away with him. I wanna leave everything behind and just run with him and live our lives with happiness and love and be faithful to each other and spend forever in his arms, but here's the problem I went to Pakistan this summer and I meet a guy thinking my x husband was no longer in the picture after we got divorced April 23 2010. This new guy's name is Asad & he is a very sweet guy that I know and believe that loves me me and him started talking and I started kind of...sort of...maybe started liking him than as time went on by my likeness for him slowly started fading away when me and Mitchel started talking because deep down inside I still love Mitch he will always be my first love no one will ever be able to replace him. well things got serious between asad's family and my family & my parent's set the date for the wedding DEC. 24,25 and 26 of 2010 Pakistani weddings last 3 day's so those were the three dates they set. Now I'm sitting here super confused about what to do because Asad the safe, logical choice. the choice my parent's would love and want. The choice my brothers will get along with . The choice my friends like. The choice my dad approves of and without his approval you get dos owned by the family. He has a bachelors degree and is working towards his master's. The choice were our family's get along. The choice were they say you should always go for the guy that loves you more.The choice where he would always try to keep me happy. The choice without the drama. The choice that he is muslim too. Now Mitchel is the My first love crazy about him and love him deeply choice. He is the dangerous might break my heart again choice. The choice where my parent's don't like him. where his family doesn't like me. The choice were He might walk out on me again. The choice where I'd get disowned,but man am I so madly in love with Mitchel Enrique Hernandez Ray.He is my first everything. He is the one and only man I could never forget. I love him and if I had a choice to choose I would pick Mitchel but for my parent's happiness and Asad's happiness I'm more leaning towards Asad. You can't get your heart broken by a boy you don't love. Man I want Mitch so badly maybe I will choose him because I know I could not imagine my life without Mitch EVER! he is the fiber of my soul the very reason to my existence. I'm so stressed out I have to make a decision by December 2010 and I don't know who to pick. I need advice, I need help I don't know who to pick but I know one thing is true and it will always be true for the rest of my life. I will always Love Mitchel forever && always |