Day 1 So I know it has been a long time and a lot has happened since I last wrote. And this really shouldn't be titled day three, but oh well. So since the last time I wrote, I've gotten a little more depressed, but my family has helped me through it a little. We tried celebrating my grandma's birthday early tonight. My grandpa is in one of his moods where if everything seems happy he has to destroy the happiness. My dad called twice. He called once just to talk to me and I felt a little guilty because I was rather harsh. I told him, "You had a choice that had nothing to do with anyone or anything except for me and the bottle[liquor], and you made your decision a long time ago!" He called back tonight. He just wanted to start an argument. I really didn't have the energy for it. I'm supposed to be starting school soon, but I lost my life scholarship so I'm having to pay for a lot of it out of my own pocket. I can barely afford it. There's a concert on tuesday, stereo skyline, I'm going with some friends. I really don't know how I'm going to fake being happy in front of them. It's been so long since I've had to fake it like this. It's beginning to hurt to smile anymore. The one thing that really got me to smile in the last few days was I'm doing a book signing. That's right I wrote a book and a woman that I talked to wants me to do a book signing. It's in a local bookshop and there's supposed to be another locally famous author there. I'm so excited to meet her. Hopefully that'll go smoothly. As for now I have to get going, I've gotta get an early start on tomorrow. I have to go register for college and go see my aunt all the while thinking of what to get my grandma for her birthday. Wish me luck! ~RD |